Why do I blog?

Hmm.... I've always been hiatus from blogging, if you read this post you might understand why. ;)
Why do I start writing a blog?


It's not cos I want to feel famous.
It's not cos I want to brag to the world about things I have or how good I am.
It's cos I have allot of things I wanted to say but I couldnt express myself better verbally compared to writing.

I'm an emotional roller-coaster.
Sometimes its extreme highs, sometimes its extreme lows.
Over the years, so many people have told me to keep my thoughts to myself, to not be so "transparent" (to quote one of em).

What they don't know is, there so much more that I've already filtered out so many things because there's just so much I have on my mind usually.
Its easier when I was a rebellious & angry teenager, cos I couldn't care less about what people tells me.

However, over the years, those words got to me.
Maybe, that's why I don't blog much?
Each time I wanted to write about something, I am haunted by those words.

I don't have fancy events to blog about, I'm not famous nor a sociallite.
I don't have awesome photographs to blog about, I'm not a professional photographer nor do I have a pricey DSLR.
I started a blog, because me & my thoughts are all I've got, and it seems like some people finds it offensive?

When most of time things I write about are things about myself & how I felt.
Part of me regretted joining a so-called "blogging-community" because when I am myself, I am alienated but when I put on a mask, I am accepted.

I lost myself in so many ways, I guess that was just one of it.
Most importantly, I lost my strength. I didn't know how to defend myself from the people who are hurting me.

Thankfully, I reached the end of the tunnel and now I'm in the light.
I am slowly regaining my strength, my confidence and most importantly my voice.

Thanx to a few of my close friends. ♥♥♥

Ahem err hermm...

Where am I heading very berry soon? =P

The pic is just ONE stop from my 1 week itinerary.

WHEEEE!!!!

It's gonna be so awesome, I just know it but I'm gonna be so stressed from now till the day I actually leave KL.

Gotta submit some pointless assignment 5 days earlier than everyone!

T_T

Till then, its rushing assignments & attending parties all the way!

=D

I'm back...!!

I'm back...!!
Hopefully for good.
HAHAHHHHAAHHAHA...!!!

Kinda lazy + busy to blog lately.
Lappie sucks, connection sucks, plus my life is kinda stagnant lately.
Only going to classes, coming home, going out for "yum chas".
That's pretty much it.

Ooohhh....!
Ooohhh....!
Ooohhh....!
But there is one thing I am super excited about. One of my classes for this semester. Am taking "Interactive Media and Web Designing Technology". Basically its to design a site from scratch, no biggie for most people of course, but for me, HELL YEAH...!!
Big deal indeed. You see, I'mma IT/Computer noob. HAHAHHAHAHAHA....!!!

Hopefully, AFTER I get a new lappie and I finish the class, I can design a new layout for this blog.

Guess it's only fair if I give a slight update on my life eh, if you cared. =P

Well here goes...

* Started Level 1 Degree this month
* Might not get PTPTN loan
* Worked in Edu Fair in Mid Valley last month (March - still haven got paid FYI)
* This is my ALMOST 7 months in KL (Boy, time does passes by fasttttt...!!)
* Dad bought me a BlackBerry Curve 8520 when my phone's dying (LOVEEE u DADDY..!!)
* Met up with old SCHOOL MATES, its as if we never stopped being BESTIES
* Met up several other bloggers both from Innit and ShoutOut

Hmm.... That's all I could squeeze out for now. Might update on it later if I suddenly remember any other stuff.

TATA...!!

*next post might be on my trip to Indonesia last year*

Comments please

I've changed my blog layout....!!!
WOOTS....!!

What you think?
Feel free to spam my comment box yea, but NOT WITH crappy things like "I like cake" or whatever shit like that. =P

I'm also gonna delete my link list soon, so if you guys want me to link you here, then please leave YOUR NAME and URL in the COMMENT BOX k?

Still figuring out where to put a few things.
Oh, and if anyone can help me put back my Nuffnang ads, let me know.

*LOVE YA*

Hello Again

So much for procrastination huh?

I've wanted to do this post for quite some time, as always, I procrastinate.
I could probably teach a teach Procrastination 101 in a special college. Heh...
As you can see, I've deleted all my previous posts.
Looking back, I did so much complaining I never showed I felt any form of gratitude or never realise the blessings that I have.
Maybe I just never write it here because I never thought people would enjoy reading something that is, perky? Perhaps?

You know, at first, I kinda hesitated to click the button that says "Ok" to the "Are you sure you want to delete these posts? This action cannot be undone." dialoque pop-up thingy.


BUT....

I clicked it anyways. LOL...!!
156 posts deleted.

I wanna start fresh, so to speak.
Maybe a new style of writing for future posts?
Who knows right?
Anyways, gotta go shower now.

Bye...!!

*P/S : some people with itchy fingers triggered the fire alarm in my block disturbing everyone's peace and forcing my roomie to walk up NINE (9) FLOORS back home since LIFTS DON'T WORK when the fire alarm is triggered*